SAD
Hay Daizee Loves,
To be completely transparent with you all, it is a little bit difficult for me during this time of the year. I have previously mentioned that heartache and change/transition triggers depression for me. So, today I want to talk about how I struggle emotionally with a change in seasons. Particularly, transitioning into Fall.
Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)
I have been finding myself feeling sad quite often for the last couple of weeks, and I literally have NOTHING to be sad about. I am so blessed, and surrounded by people I love and who love me. So, it is indeed just a case of seasonal blues. I have noticed this pattern in my mood and emotions really since high school. I love, love, LOVE Fall… BUT… it triggers depression in ya girl. With us jumping into Fall, the weather is cooler and it is getting darker earlier. Yes, that alone makes me sad. My emotional state is more sensitive than usual. All I want to do is sleep, but I am having trouble sleeping. I am having trouble concentrating. I don’t want to get up in the morning and start my day. Idk… I just don’t feel like doing life right now.
For me personally, I love the sun. I am a sun person. I know I get a ton of life and energy from sunlight. That alone could seriously be why I am so down and feel like staying in the bed all day. THE SUN AIN’T OUT. If you know me, you know I feel like I am supposed to be up when the sun is up, and sleep when it is not. AND IT’S COLD. So, not only that, but with the cooler temps, I want a lot of warm, comforting carbs. #DietIsEverything Meat, carbs and all of that stuff… definitely affects my mental and emotional state. BEEN PEEPED THAT. Factor in hormones (that could be off from the food) and it’s like… no wonder I just want to sleep and cry all day long. So I mean, it truly is just a combination of things.
Now, I don’t want to necessarily downplay what I (or anyone else) experience around this time each year by saying it is “just” a case of “seasonal blues”, because I mean… it is very real. However, I do not want to speak negativity over myself, and I don’t want to feel like a victim to my emotions. There are so many aspects to depression. Seriously. But, at the end of the day, I AM IN CONTROL. Although, I am indeed HIGHLY sensitive anyways, I just cannot afford to give my emotions (the devil) power over me anymore. So, Young Meg, you are aware of these things… what are you going to do about your seasonal depression girl??
PRAY. My personal opinion is that a lot of mental/emotional struggles are attacks from the devil. Which is why I do not like claiming these for myself. So, I have to stay close to God and myself. I have to be intentional about speaking and claiming positivity and keeping my spirit UPLIFTED. How am I going to do that?
AVOID NEGATIVITY. I CANNOT. That means certain situations, people, songs, and yes… even Law & Order SVU. You have to be so mindful of what you are letting enter into your mind, heart, and spirit. Be intentional about protecting them because everything in your life… what you manifest… comes from the condition of those things.
I am going to use these emotions to fuel something positive. I can usually always find some positivity/inspiration… even in some negativity. For example, I am having a rough morning today because of this seasonal depression, but I am writing about it… in hopes that someone can relate and it helps them. So, I am going to try my best to channel everything into something POSITIVE.
EXERCISE. Sweating helps tremendously. It truly gives me an outlet to release the negative. If you caught my snaps earlier this week, you know I was running my negativity away. It is definitely helping me fight my seasonal blues.
NUTRIENTS. Yo! I have got to seriously incorporate some more nutrients into my diet to help balance these hormones and keep my mental and emotional state healthy (as well as my body). Have to, have to, HAVE TO make sure I am feeding my body life (nutrients) and goodness (superfoods) and waaayyyyy less death (meat) and toxins (processed foods) #IWannaBeVegan BECAUSE I AM TELLING YOU… what you put in, whether physically or spiritually, is manifesting itself outwardly in some way.
That’s all I have today Daizee Loves! If you are feeling particularly down right now for what feels like no reason at all, you are not alone. Remember to just be mindful, intentional, and to take control. Try some of the things I am doing to combat my SAD. And honestly, if you are reading this and can relate… don’t speak this over yourself. Just be aware of how the change in season can affect your emotional/mental state and do what you can to combat it. I love you and thanks for reading!
Love, ALWAYS
Megan