Where Did I Leave Jesus?
Hay Daizee Loves,
I know… it has been a minute!
To briefly catch you all up with what’s going on with me:
Work is CRAZY. #ThisAintIt I am still adjusting to the amount of travel I do and my new responsibilities. I miss being an intern. LOL it was WAY easier.
I graduated with my masters in project management last month. WOOT! WOOT!
I just renewed my apartment lease for another 12 months. I would say I CRUSHED IT on my own and demonstrated that I am a responsible adult. Go mom and dad!
Relationship status?? I’m single… and taken. Mind ya business. LOL JOKING. Well, technically… you are single unless you’re married BUT I am not single SINGLE. Trying to get it together, and work towards an amazing future with my bestie bae.
I just turned 25. #QuarterCenturyShawty
That’s pretty much it. If you follow me on social media, you know that the month of May was LIT. I vacationed with my honey to Mexico, and took a girls trip to Miami! Needless to say, it’s going to be a ramen noodle summer. HAHAHA joking… a little… but my focus is:
My finances
My dreams/goals
My sanity, peace, and happiness
At least it was until last night. Last night was the first night of VBS and I UNEXPECTEDLY found myself in the young adult class. Keep in mind I’ve pretty much been teaching the little kids since the end of high school. Well… within the first 5 minutes of class, my entire life was SNATCHED. My spirit (wo)man was hit with a total spiritual smack down. Our teacher and his wife (also, young adults) posed some very challenging questions. Basically for the last 14 hours, I have been asking myself where exactly did I leave Jesus… forreal?? My relationship with him has not been a priority in a while. I hate to admit it but it hasn’t. My priorities have been:
My relationship
Being a responsible, independent adult
Graduating
Stepping up at work
Not falling apart
Netflix
Eating (I’ve gained a smooth 30 pounds y’ all)
Literally EVERYTHING except Jesus
And when you think about it, I need(ed) Him for ALL of these things. The super crazy part about all of this is that even in realizing that I have indeed in fact been putting my spiritual walk DEAD LAST… God has STILL been SHOWING OUT in my life. Like, why are you being so good to me, and you know I haven’t really been worried about you or trying to stay close to you? *inserts praise break* WHAT A GOD!
I’m not going to act like I have completely forgot about Jesus, I am just saying I KNOW for a fact… we aren’t as close as we use to be. I’ve been caught up in everything but the Holy Spirit and it’s EVIDENT. I’m not super close to Him right now and it shows. At least to me (and my parents).
So, essentially I wrote this to catch y ’all up but to also share how I am feeling since last night. Also, to proclaim that my NUMBER ONE priority is:
#1: Focus on my relationship with my main man, Jesus Christ
I know that everything else will work out wonderfully and beautifully as long as I TRULY keep Him first. And truth be told… I have missed Him. We sometimes treat our relationship with Him like it is somehow different than our relationships with other humans. But in actuality, it’s the SAME THING. I truly have missed sitting with Him, talking with Him, getting to know Him more, and letting Him pour into me.
Soooo, instead of me saying let me get my life together…. let me take some time to get my WALK together, and focus on my most important relationship. I am in desperate need of some QUALITY TIME with my MAIN MAN.
I love Jesus so much. I really do, and I don’t know why He deals with me (because I’d cut my inconsistent behind off LOL) but I am so thankful He does.
I also love y’ all, missed y’ all, and missed writing.
Thanks for reading!
Love ALWAYS,
Megan