Daisy's Birthday
Hay Daizee Loves,
If you follow me on social media, you know that Sunday was my great-grandmother’s (Daisy’s) birthday. It was a special day for me because as you know, she is the inspiration behind Pretty Daizee. I even took my first set of pictures for the blog on her birthday last year. This year for her birthday, I spent the afternoon/evening just thinking about her and the moments we shared.
If you read my Instagram post, you saw where I said I have found so much guidance in my memories of her. I said that because as of lately, I am in a new place spiritually. It’s so new and different that it’s a little scary, and I never have anyone to talk to because they are either going to think that I am crazy or get scared. Y’ all don’t know how many times I have tried to tell a friend, cousin, my sister, or mom about one of my dreams or experiences and they’ve straight up asked me to stop talking because it was scaring them.
And it’s so funny because I remember Daisy sharing so many things with me as a child that scared THE MESS out of me. Like whyyyy did you even tell me that Bigma? BUT like I have written before, my Bigma operated in the Divine Spirit of our Creator. She was always tapped into some powerful stuff. There is absolutely no denying it. She saw things, she felt things… and her spiritual experiences were the real deal at all times.
I’ve found myself just wishing she was here physically to share more of her experiences with me and to help me figure things out. But truth be told, I feel her here… all of the time. My Bigma is my guardian angel and I knew that when she passed. Yes, I was heartbroken when she passed because I knew I couldn’t just go see her and sit with her, but I have never really felt like she was gone. I know when her spirit is with me because she gives me signs. Her spiritual presence brings me so much peace, comfort, and reassurance. I’ve found that to be especially true lately. And considering she taught me a lot about what I believe to be true about spirits and such, I don’t think it’s a coincidence.
Anyone who knew her will tell you that I am just like her and share in her same spiritual gifts and abilities. It’s nothing new. And so Sunday as I sat and reflected on so many of our talks and story times, I could not shake the feeling that Bigma KNEW. She knew I was just like her. She knew I was going to come to this point in my life. She knew so much about me that I am just now beginning to discover and accept for myself. She tried to show me, teach me, tell me, and give me the wisdom and guidance I would need RIGHT NOW.
Sooo, here I am at 24 trying to find myself… and it seems like so many things that have always been inside of me are surfacing, making themselves known. It’s all starting to make so much sense. I am learning new terminology and different explanations and meanings for things that I have always felt and experienced. It seems like these feelings are becoming more amplified and these experiences are becoming more frequent the older I get.
What I want more than anything is simply to just TAP IN. Tap into the spiritual power that’s already within me, because I truly believe that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience. Tap into all of these traits and qualities about me. I want to operate in the same divine, beautiful, and powerful spirit… and not be so scared. I want to understand myself and develop these gifts and abilities because I know it’s all a part of my God-given purpose for being here.
I want to make my Bigma, my Daisy, my guardian angel proud. Continue her legacy. More than anything.
*** This post is about my Bigma, but it would not be right not to mention my grandma (her daughter) because my grandma also has the same gifts and experiences. She is my GO-TO when I am shook up about something I have felt, heard or seen in a dream or something. She’s the only person that doesn’t make me feel crazy, and I trust her interpretations way more than the internet. If I try to talk to my mom about any of it, her response is always the same.
“Megan that’s weird. You sound crazy. I don’t want to talk about it”.
ANDDD
“You are definitely your grandmama’s granddaughter and Daisy’s great-granddaughter”.
Your offspring are truly extensions of you, and you can’t tell me my dad doesn’t also share in these gifts, because it’s his side of the family and I am literally JUST LIKE all 3 of them. It’s all starting to make so much sense…
Anyways, I hope this didn’t weird you out too much. Everybody isn’t there lol, but now y ’all know me and Daisy a little better.
Happy Birthday, Daisy!
Love ALWAYS,
Megan